Thursday, June 24, 2010

Wounded Heart

It's been a long while since I last blogged. Totally lost the touch of it. The combined feeling of wholesomeness and relief after sharing my thoughts only. Now I'm really troubled. Even though many felt happy for me; I too felt happy but the persons I'm closest to are not.

I didn't get First Class, I know I'm not the First Class graduate kind because first of all, I'm not studious and secondly I am not quite used to the teaching system in UK. I might be enjoying myself a little too much in the UK with all the temptations being the people, music and traveling. Nevertheless I knew what I had to do and I aimed to secure a Second Upper.

After the exams, I thought that EU Law would significantly affect my marks. I was even more afraid that my Dissertation would pull me down to a Second Lower because well, I seriously could not predict my marks. Above all, I did a LONG DISSERTATION which could go either way to secure my degree or not.

When I told my mother about my results today, she wasn't too ecstatic. She was like: "Are you satisfied with your results? Then, that's good."

I had to be satisfied with my results and I was incredibly happy to say that I've got a First Class in my Dissertation. However she didn't seem to share the same joy that I felt. Was she expecting me to get a First Class?

I can't get the conversation out of my head. I couldn't reach my dad for words of comfort. My brother is of NO USE! He didn't even ask me about my results. 叉烧仔!!!