3 Non-Coloured Pills Evoked Me Alter-Ego.

Nothing like a healthy me stalking up the net late at night. I've actually receiving complaints via Facebook, MSN Messenger and even my handphone now.

"SICK PEOPLE MUST GET MORE REST!"

"why are u still awake??"

"you no need to sleep one ah Carly Yap"

I guess I should really rest... long weekend is closing in. Nottingham/Liverpool/Cheshire Oak. Then my long awaited Jenny & Johnny concert.

It's amazing how medicine can cloud your judgment. Let me list out my scenarios:

#1 - Never check budget airline website when you're all drugged up

My friend had been wanting a trip for so long but no plan was on the table really. Then she suggested GERMANY and I was browsing through Ryanair website. £6 for tickets to Dusseldorf. And the rest is history. I'll be in Germany from 15th till 22nd December. Just pray that I'll get my passport by then.

#2 - Never make promises before you start thinking straight

A friend who came over my place a few weeks ago was thinking of running away from her "incoming-snow-blizzard" Sunderland and I was like... COME COME COME! Even talked about food and which restaurants to eat at. When she messaged me about the traveling dates and timing I even stamped my approval. Not until this afternoon when the medication was off; I REMEMBERED THAT I HAD A CONCERT TO ATTEND! It broke her heart, once when she heard about it but I flattened her lifeline when I mentioned my Germany trip. And now, she's
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#3 - NEVER EVER, talk nonsense and try to get them materialized

Planning on a blog for short stories? Ideas all cropped up when I was drugged but once they wore off writer's block hit me like a hard block of CEMENT. Period.

Down with F.L.U.

I don't remember being so sick in the UK before. I've been sick before in Leeds; twice but even with the two counts combined cannot top the current one I'm suffering from. Thank goodness I am feeling better day after day. Influenza is just annoying especially for someone with rhinitis like me. I can hardly sleep; but I need the sleep and I cannot smell the air when I breathe.

Plain depressing with the weather in UK and night time falls too early. Snow is reported in several areas but thank goodness it's sunny here in Manchester today. The weather had sympathy for me. Many friends sympathized with my situation as well; being all alone in my place and nobody to take care of me. But I'm not the type of person who would rely on others to take care of me when I'm sick. I still remember, back in INTI, a classmate of mine was very sick and I took her in for a week just taking care of her. That's when I got the nickname of caretaker.

I must get healthy by the weekend... I want to go Nottingham and Cheshire Oak! Then it's Jenny & Johnny's concert and the continuous wait for my visa. And people, I finally understand the feeling of going down with flu in UK. It's horrendous and now, I share your pain.

Dedications Part 2

The concert was A-W-E-S-O-M-E!!! For the very first time I didn't behave like a groupie; I simply took my own sweet time to get to the MEN Arena; even getting a box of chips with cheese en route! Because for the very first time, I've got seated tickets and boy I didn't regret that. The crowd was massive and a bunch of troublemakers kept reserving a circle for themselves (within the crowd), and pushed everybody aside while they did some really rough horseplay. And I don't forget to mention, they do serve alcohols at concerts here so... no thanks but I don't want to get injured and all.

I didn't really get to enjoy the first act so I cannot comment on them. B.O.B. was quite good. I hate gangsta rap so his type of music totally music to my ears. I was really shocked when he pulled on the electric guitar and started belting out MGMT's "Kids". That's when I stood up and started rocking. He ended his performance with Airplanes... and guess who came on stage? ZAC! The stage was dark so everybody thought it was Hayley though she's hiding at the lower stage singing her part. Once the stage lighted up... everybody was laughing their heads off looking at the comical Zac.

Hayley with her hair tied up and wearing this really thick winter jacket jumped onto the main stage. People told me that she'd been wearing those for every part of her UK tour while singing "Airplanes".

Once their performance started, it was nonstop rock frenzy. Everybody was so energetic and fun! The stage was really cool and Taylor certainly enjoyed running around the stage!

I love this part when the spotlight stayed on Hayley for like 30 seconds.

For more pictures, visit: Paramore Live in Manchester

Dedications Part 1

I've been a fan of Paramore since I saw the music video of the song "Pressure" and how it relates to my life in college. At that particular time, Hayley still donned the red hair. Then I heard "Emergency" which had a cool music video by the way. I had their first album but didn't really indulge in it... I was more into Our Lady Peace and Death Cab for Cutie at that moment.

I remember a friend of mine suggesting that Paramore is high school rock-esque because their songs are radio friendly and high school students LOVE them. I totally disagreed because their debut album suggested otherwise. I didn't know who sang "crushcrushcrush" at the beginning, it's because I wasn't really into radio hits as I was in the early stages of converting myself into an Indie fan. My brother told me it was Paramore and I was shocked at first considering the cheekiness they'd infused into their punk rock music. And "Misery Business" was like so cute and not to mention, "That's What You Get". But I kind of noticed the chemistry between Josh and Hayley sort of faded and by that time they had a new member and the guitarist ranting about Hayley's popularity. Not many people knew this but they're Christians and if you had their The Final Riot DVD, you'd notice them praying before concerts.

Brand New Eyes album, in my opinion, is their "reversion" album. Sort of reintroducing the fans into their debut album type of music and lyrics. It's like now that they're famous, let them re-establish artistic control and do what we want. Sounds like what Indie bands do, right?

Tours with Tegan & Sara and New Found Glory in the US; only a fan like me would crave and hope to attend. Hayley admitted about her girl crush on Tegan and well, Paramore and New Found Glory goes back a long time in history and the fact that Hayley is dating Chad certainly does help a little. Together, they'd released this EP:



I am excited about the concert tomorrow night but that means ditching my friend who's coming over... oh well, she wouldn't mind I'm sure. HAHA!

Love/Hate Relationship with My Life

The wait for my visa is taking a toll on me. I just hope it gets here eventually if not I'm doomed! I am so frustrated with my life now. I hate holidays. Unbelievable, right? I'm one of those people who always want something else and can never be satisfied with the current lifestyle. Say, when I'm studying, I'd be looking for chances to slack. Got reminded by my friend last night; I would've gotten better results if not because of my laziness. Maybe there was some truth to that. But that's just me and I'm sure most of you share the same trait. Now, I'm in a long holiday and all I want to do is WORK. I'm kind of sick with the carefree lifestyle of mine.

I thought of a few things to do this month. First, learn some basic Chinese characters. That's what I should do instead of StarCraft II my time away. My Chinese is so off! I didn't even dare to speak Mandarin with the guy at the Chinese Supermarket just now because I thought I'd mislead him. You should see me when I'm ordering food at Chinese Restaurants... that's when the comedy begins. I'd mislead everybody because I don't know how to read the menu but I know what I want to eat.

Secondly, I'd like to learn some new recipes. I had the best Japanese bento today and I love the teriyaki sauce. Going out tomorrow to get some Mirin (Japanese sweet cooking wine)! Maybe I'll cook this dish to my visitor this weekend.

Lastly, reflect and reevaluate my life in UK shall my visa plans fall apart. There is no guarantee that they'll approve my application so I might as well have a backup plan standing by. So, that's my life.

Summer in Anticipation.

Surprise surprise; AirAsia is giving out free tickets, albeit limited, to major flights within Asia. That being said, good luck clicking your way through the site to look for the relevant dates with free flights. I got free ones to Macau for three and that's my only accomplishment. Luckily the site didn't crash while I was making reservations.

Then tickets to Phuket at relatively low prices; no thanks to temptation from my client. I'd always thought that Phuket is like the "Island of Temples" where most senile citizens would go for vacation on a bus ride. Guess I'll just have to find out next summer.

I guess I'll be back in Malaysia next July after all. Simply cannot wait.

Answers. Pronto!

Ideas came pouring out whenever I least expect them. I've locked myself out from the world for the weekend. Life in solitary, what would it do to me? Then I recalled how in films prisoners would count their days with marks left on the prison wall; etched by spoons. Life is miserable that way, isn't it? And I haven't been keeping a diary since early high school. They'd always told me that writing a diary would improve my language. Heck, I didn't know what to write about my life!

It'd seem that I acted like a tortured soul. Don't really what my next step is going to be, don't know what initiative I have to make to end this prolonged hiatus. I've always told people: "For every breathing second of my life, I'm wasting away my parents' money."

I seemed to be living a life many would envy. Without any consequences from my parents. I started reflecting on this situation after a heated conversation with my brother. I was reprimanding him for his bad mid-term results when I was the one who had to take a gap year here. Who am I to give him a scolding when nobody had given me one? Of all my personal failures; this was the worst. For my brother to make an example out of me; out of spite; was the last straw and I blocked him off. Inevitably; a nuisance must be contained.

Life isn't that simple, right? The fact that we have full control of our lives is a difficult one to live with. What could've been? What should've been? What ought to be? Only He knows. For He has plans for all of us.

One more week. My questions will be answered. The wait is killing me.

Sway.

After a visit to HMV two days ago, I found myself blurting out all the high school series that I once watched. They had the whole collection of Charmed and Buffy the Vampire Slayer; both which were my favorite. Then I started looking for my post-high school favorite, Veronica Mars but they didn't have it. Veronica Mars is simply genius. Not many people heard of it, watched it nor knew it at all. Maybe, just Kristen Bell and Amanda Seyfried.

Enemy turned lovers; Logan and Veronica.

I rewatched Season 1 of Buffy last night, it's only 12 episodes (there goes 9 hours of my evening); and I recalled how Angel was once the beloved vampire; not the Twilight vampires or the brothers from The Vampire Diaries. I dread to watch Season 2 now because that's when his soul was taken away and Buffy had to kill him. Sad.

Another happening, totally unrelated to the former; I found a gem at the local TK Maxx, 'The Works of Shakespeare' for only £12!!! It included three books consisting of plays, histories, essays and poems.

Now my depressed Sylvia Plath has a friend! Oh, so much joy for the weekend!

For A Person Not Next to Me.

Linger. My mind kept on lingering today. Call it daydream, whatever, but it's certainly not for me. Ponder is excessive thinking, daydream is to waste time dreaming while awake but lingering, for me, it continuity on a certain subject. I cannot seem to take my mind off of it though I tried to make myself busy, making phone calls (important ones) and gaming. I even tried to walked the thought off by going to the wholesaler store near my flat.




## No matter which way you go;
No matter which way you stay;
You're out of my mind, out of my mind;
Out of my mind, out of my mind##